It’s been a very long time since I had posted something on my blog. Tonight, just when I was supposed to sleep early, my mind tricked me into not to. So, was traveling in my mind, without a goal of my own, but with a hope of getting exhausted of this endless task and finally fall asleep. Thought about this and that, went through countless alleys in my brain. As clear as day, wasn’t able to succeed so far.

What I found out about myself is that I’m struggling with getting myself together; myself being my thoughts. Can’t just pull one moment out of the mess and treat it fair. As if there is something holding me back.

This let me realize that I’m but a humble servant, a humble servant of my own delirium.

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Mehmet Koçali
November 20th, 2012
İstanbul

An old homeless man sitting on the pillar of St. Antuan Chuch, Istanbul, Turkey
St. Anthony of Padua Church, Istanbul, Turkey

Location: St. Anthony of Padua Church, Istanbul-Turkey
Camera: Ricoh Singlex TLS (produced between 1967-1972)
Film: Ilford Delta 100 Professional Black & White